Going on in my Head and my Heart

Where do I start?

God asks me and my boyfriend to break up. God has shown me that no matter how highly someone thinks of me, I still have to go to Him, turn to Him, and trust Him to tell me and give me my worth. God tells me that I don’t know what He is pulling out of me (and also from him) that will prepare each of us (separately) for the plans and future God has for each of us.
God wants me to quit my full-time job that I love and where they love me. A place I and my employers thought I’d be for years. A place that promoted me and was giving me more responsibility. The first workplace where I actually developed friendships. [So I gave up the guy and the job.]

God has been teaching me to trust Him as my provider. It’s all about sharing the good News and God‘s love; both here and now before the Race, as well as (of course) on the Race.

I’ve been praying for the people that will receive my donation letter and blog link. I’ve been praying that there will be some that hear God for the first time because of what I wrote and my heart for God.

 God has been reminding me to be patient and to “trust the process.” I have had to pray and dig in. I’ve asked others to pray against my flesh, the enemy and the world. God has had to remind me repeatedly to not trust what I see, but trust what He says. He says that He already has the finances for me; that He owns the thousand hills and all that is on them (including cattle); that He has a plan to prosper me and not harm me and to give me a hope and a future; and to trust in Him with all my heart and to not lean on my own understandings, but in all my ways to acknowledge Him and He will make my paths straight.

 I even took leaps of faith. After quitting my job, I was going to be doing childcare in Florida. I felt like He wanted me to take a whole extra suitcase, as if I was going to move there. And although I returned to Illinois, I didn’t fall apart or think I stopped hearing from Him (which is what I felt and thought in the past).

 I know the Race is going to take a lot emotionally, physically and spiritually. He is doing all that growing in me now so that I will lean on Him more and be better prepared for the World Race.

I’ve been working full time on stuff for the Race. There’s at least 3 deadlines coming up in about 2 weeks and I can’t wait to see how Good is going to work through me and how He is going to show up! 😀 <3

Thanks for being there for me!

Rachel