K squad, the squad I was supposed to launch with this August, went to Georgia August 6 to prepare for launch. I was busy serving with my church and having a great time. I think it’s been months, if not years, that I’ve felt that good while serving. I thought it would have been a really hard day to serve while K squad was heading to GA for launch. It wasn’t that bad, though. When I did think of them, I got so excited about the journey they are about to embark on.

I’ve been truly amazed how much growth God has brought me through, especially these past few months. It’s been two months since I thought I was going to training camp. I already feel almost back to myself.

God brought such blessings through K squad. I am so thankful for each and every one of them. Some may remain lifetime friends; some were simply there for a reason or a season. Either way, I treasure all the time spent with them (even Zoom time).

I still plan to, and can, leave next year. All my funding will transfer with me to next August. I still need encouragement, though, and financial support partners. I really want to have $1000 more by September 24, this year.

People have been praying for me and reaching out to me. God has been pulling off the shame that never belonged there in the first place. On days that I wanted to seclude, hide and isolate, friends would ask to hang out. I have been reading Job and leaning in to what God wants to tell me.

I’m thankful for: friends, a small stream of income every month, provision, healing, time with my family, my roots to God, prayers, grace, provided lunch, caramels, Joy, genuine smiles, love, those who have rallied and fought for me, the outdoors, hammocking, serving, relatable stories and paths, newer technology, coffee.

I’m leaning into community and healing. It’s a longer process for me to leave than I thought, but I know God can still get me there. I am so grateful for everyone who is reading this and everyone who has been supporting me. I cannot do this without you.

Prayers for my heart to continually be healed so I can pursue the Race again; for community; for the right job; continued healing from shame, isolation, and allergies.

Rachel